The reason I closed down my blog:
http://just-15.blogspot.com

Your Birthdate: December 22

You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking. However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone. Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5 You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

HOW in the world can this be possible when i have true love 4 times and get my heart broken 5 times?
LOL, this is a bit accurate.

Goodbye.
This blog lost it's charm :/

THIS IS SPECIALLY FOR PATRINA !

I am currently very emotionally unstable.

Today felt very accomplished at band, through the blood, tears, sweat and temper.
Everything was worth it.

You want me to tell you straight if i don't like anything right?
Here you go:

You are not me.
Don't come and place all your thoughts on me.

GO AND BE THE SAINT YOU ALWAYS PREACH TO BE.

I am not the good soul, and neither will I aim to be one just because of you.

I LIVE THE WAY I WANT.
Not the way you want.

At the very least, I have never thought of myself to waste all my life.
If that is what you think, I'm so sorry.

But what do I have to do?
Work myself to death, be a good soul JUST TO PROVE TO YOU?

Nah, I like it this way.

To express my utmost sincerity to zhiying, I am here to dedicate yet another post to her.

THANK YOU! MY SAVIOR IN THE DARK OF THE NIGHT!
YOU GAVE ME THE INSPIRATION TO POST!

Hmm, is this enough?
You know, sometimes gratitude just can't be put into the form of words.

HAHA!

Anyway, Zhiying, i just want to say:
I hope that you, as my savior and inspiration, will become a good soul in the sea of bad souls on Earth!
STOP ROBBING PEOPLE OF THEIR 1ooo DOLLARS !

I will always be the first to forgive you.
Haha!

x)

The inspiration of this post is: WU ZHI YING JIE JIE !!

I think i doing charity, cause she asked me to post and here i am, though 1-2 days later.
Haha!

Had been wanting to post and zhiying just gave me that push.

Hmm, things at band are below average.
Truth to be said, I am too going for the sake of going.
What to do, I am seriously not enjoying band practices.
Dislike to be exact, but, I'll endure and try my best.

I do feel guilty for not bonding with my section, etc.
Yet, I see no reason why I should.
I do feel guilty for making things difficult for certain people but if I do things the other way, won't I be making things difficult for myself?
I rather help myself than help you.

On the surface, I seem very mean.
Yet, the agonies and exasperation are feelings that are subjected to individuals.

Band is tiring on the whole.
Yet, I enjoyed them in secondary 2s.

What's the problem now?

Somehow I do feel that the way life works is quite similar to the totalitarian society of Fahrenheit 451.
We are discouraged to think, ain't we?

Ignorance is truly bliss.
Yet, it's also very pathetic how some people out there can be so ignorant.

OKay, stop harping on band.
It's really no big deal.
I shall just go for the sake of going, do my best and shut up.
It'll turn out fine.

* fingers crossed *


Anyway, this friendship/relationship is really fragile and I'm scared of breaking it.
Very scared of even touching it; I'll treasure it.
Despite all these worries, I believe there is love and need.
x)


Sometimes I thank god that I'm an optimist.
Everything will soon be fine, one way or another.

The world is so fake at times, but it is a fact.

Humans do this to protect themselves.
Understandable.
Yet, why does it gets so irritating at times?

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU YOU IDIOT!
You created all this mess and you say I have no right?
THANKS.

You, IDIOT, caused someone to have suicidal notion and you tell me I have no right?

~!@#$%^&*()]

We, yesterday, helped you to sent him home and you say I have no right.
Yea, man.
Do you have the right to hurt someone?

You, idiot, due to your actions, cause so much mental turmoil for everyone.
You think you have the right to do so?

Rights, rights, and rights.
Want to talk about rights?

Did you apologized you idiot?
YOU DIDN'T.

Did you clean up all the shit you left behind?
YOU DIDN'T.

The 3o minutes of tears mourned for the lost of a friendship.
Leave it at that.

I HAVE NO RIGHTS TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU, i think.

Wait, do i have the rights to cry?

You broke my heart.
For real.

pie, hen, shu gou, ti, shu wan gou,pie, na[dian].

pie, pie, shu, hen shu, hen, hen, shu gou, dian, pie.

she, hen shu, hen, hen, shu, pie hen, pie hen, dian, shu gou, dian, na[dian].

I don't know what to do, what to feel and what to say anymore.
Really.
I don't want to lose the passion for life,
but it appears that the passion just left me here.

Temporarily.

I know the passion will be back,
cause it will not leave me behind.

Wait for me, I'll be back.




Somehow, as I grow older i get more tired.
tired with life i mean, mentally.
Even friends just use the 'OKOK~~' attitude and brushes you off.
Who have time for everyone except themselves now?

It's not that easy.
Don't ask me what.